{"id":217,"date":"2009-11-01T18:01:40","date_gmt":"2009-11-02T01:01:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.chloewatts.com\/wordpress\/?p=217"},"modified":"2009-11-03T01:27:51","modified_gmt":"2009-11-03T08:27:51","slug":"sunday-nov-1st-2009","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.chloewatts.com\/wordpress\/?p=217","title":{"rendered":"Sunday, Nov 1st, 2009"},"content":{"rendered":"

It\u2019s Sunday and for a week now I\u2019ve been trying to figure out how a sphere the size of a small marble could screw up so many lives.\u00a0 <\/span>It\u2019s not an atomic bomb or an earthquake in downtown New York City.\u00a0 <\/span>It\u2019s a little piece of un-cooperating cells forming a tumor in a little head that is filled with only good thoughts for the world and its inhabitants.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Since Monday those of us deeply connected with this situation have been going through all sorts of psychological changes.\u00a0 <\/span>There is confusion for sure.\u00a0 <\/span>Chloe has had no symptoms for a long time now and has been energetic, happy and healthy.\u00a0 <\/span>She is so much taller and a little heavier than she has ever been.\u00a0 <\/span>So what\u2019s with the newest MRI pictures?\u00a0 <\/span>There is no way this thing has grown.\u00a0 <\/span>It just doesn\u2019t make sense.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Colin, age 14, is in a cloud.\u00a0 <\/span>I\u2019m not sure he fully understands what we are facing once again\u2026 or maybe he\u2019s just in denial of it all as a way of self-preservation.\u00a0 <\/span>We know he is an extremely sensitive individual so it\u2019s not a matter of him just ignoring it\u2026 or is it\u2026<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

My days just tend to go on by with nothing really important happening.\u00a0 <\/span>My mind is switched on but my senses aren\u2019t.\u00a0 <\/span>It\u2019s sort of like walking through a dream\u2026 or nightmare\u2026 once again.\u00a0 <\/span>I keep thinking, or dreaming, of different cures that haven\u2019t been addressed yet.\u00a0 <\/span>Is there a way of freezing this thing?\u00a0 <\/span>How about super microsurgery?\u00a0 <\/span>What about attack genes that get implanted in other types of tumors?\u00a0 <\/span>Cut the blood supply off to this thing and let it shrivel up.\u00a0 <\/span>Something new has to be out there and available for us.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Dana is just worn out.\u00a0 <\/span>She doesn\u2019t need another person asking her how she is or what\u2019s going on with Chloe.\u00a0 <\/span>If you haven\u2019t been through something like this then you have no idea how draining those heartfelt, sympathetic questions can be.\u00a0 <\/span>Even if it comes from a best friend it is just too much as it brings things into a reality you are just trying to escape for a short period of time.\u00a0 <\/span>She loves all of you who are filled with concern but she needs her space from all the questions.\u00a0 <\/span>Tonight she is in her cave, alone, trying to keep herself busy to stave off those thoughts.\u00a0 <\/span>This blog is designed to keep you informed so I hope you will be back to it often.\u00a0 <\/span>We will try and keep the updates there.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

And then there is Chloe, who can laugh at the drop of a hat but has that inner sadness that is so hard to witness.\u00a0 <\/span>You can just smell the wheels turning in her mind with a million thoughts bouncing all around.\u00a0 <\/span>She doesn\u2019t want to go through surgery again but she knows that is a real possibility.\u00a0 <\/span>When she thinks about it she starts making deals\u2026. I\u2019ll do this if they promise not to do that\u2026\u00a0 <\/span>How else is an old 10 year old supposed to process something of this magnitude?<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

So, that\u2019s Sunday.\u00a0 <\/span>The two adults are away in their sanctuaries.\u00a0 <\/span>The two kiddos are at their dads\u2019 house.\u00a0 <\/span>And Wednesday is coming way too soon\u2026 and way to far from now.\u00a0 <\/span>Be well and please be in prayer as we continue to walk in our fog.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Blessings,<\/span><\/p>\n

Ron<\/span><\/p>\n

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